Sunday, March 28, 2010

I wish...

  • I wish that I could post pictures of Patrick on the internet. He is so photogenic and cute.
  • I wish that the world could share in seeing his cuteness.
  • I wish I knew what was going to happen in his court case this week.
  • I wish I knew if we were going to have him next year.
  • I wish I knew if we would be able to adopt him.
  • I wish that it didn't take a court document for us to take him on vacation.
  • I wish I could step into the future and just see if we still had him. Then, I would come back to present time and keep living the rollercoaster ride.
  • I wish I knew the best way to explain all of this to him when he gets older and starts asking questions.
  • I wish that he would be here later to ask me lots of questions.
  • I wish I knew that no matter where he was living that he would be safe.
  • I wish that I could honestly say that I prayed for his future everyday.
  • I wish that his mom was a healthy person.
  • I secretly wish that her health/safety didn't determine whether or not he was ours forever.
  • I wish the judge who makes decisions for Patrick's life could see a glimpse into his life.
  • I wish that the judge who rules in his case would make the best decision for him.
  • I wish I could end this post with the cute picture of him that I am looking at right now.

5 comments:

Take heart... said...

I wish you could post pictures of him too. I plan to take a ton at his "Welcome Home" party, sometime in September =)... then I will unabashedly post them everywhere.

I will rejoice with you and I will cry with you. He is one lucky little boy, and you are an awesome mommy. I'm glad to call you my friend.

Tanya said...

I wish all those things with you! You are one of the strongest and nicest women I know. Patrick is so happy. You can tell just by looking at him, he radiates happiness! I can never be sad or angry around him!

minivanlife said...

Oh Beth, I love and miss you so much! I'm praying for you and Patrick. I love your honesty in this post. Even though we haven't seen each other in about 6 years (has it really been that long?!?!), I still consider you one of my best friends. I wish the judge could know just how wonderful of a mother you are!

Valerie said...

Praying for you and your family! I know how much you love Patrick and I pray that everything you dream will come true!

Jen Munoz said...

Beth, your writing is almost as wonderful as you are a mom to Miss Maggie and Sir Patrick (and that's a whole lot of wonderful!) I have sat here reading your "I wish" and have tears...I know how much you all love Patrick, it shows in not only your writing, but the glow on your faces, by the mere mention of this little mans name! Keeping you in prayer for all of your "I wishes" and your hearts desires to be blessed upon you from Christ! "I wish" and pray also for the judge to grant this desire and for Patrick to have the Coles as his "forever" family...(((HUGS)))...