Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Parent Trap

Today, we slept in late, even Patrick! Then, we were very, very lazy. We stayed in our pajamas til about 1:00. I bathed the kids and put Patrick down for a nap. Maggie and I were watching tv and the Parent Trap came on the Disney channel.

I asked Maggie if she had ever seen the Parent Trap. She had never seen it before. It was such a cute movie. I hadn't ever seen the newish one with Lindsay Lohan in it. I loved the Haley Mills' version.

It was so fun to watch it with her. I love watching movies that I loved watching as a kid with Maggie. She was so into the movie and was hoping that she could go to camp to find her twin, too. I hate to break the "bad news" to her that she doesn't have a long lost twin that lives with my divorced spouse.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

trying to sort it out

We have had Patrick for 3 months now. He looks like Maggie. He adores Steven. He is seriously one of the easiest going babies ever born. Most of the time forget that I didn't give birth to him.

Today, during worship, God hit me pretty hard. I don't pray for his mom to get well. There's a part of me that doesn't want her to get well. I love him. It's easier for me if she doesn't recover.

I say that it's because I want him to be in a safe place. But, I really just want him to be in our family forever. He's perfect and wonderful.

I don''t have a nice ending for this blog. Just being vulnerable.