We have had Patrick for 3 months now. He looks like Maggie. He adores Steven. He is seriously one of the easiest going babies ever born. Most of the time forget that I didn't give birth to him.
Today, during worship, God hit me pretty hard. I don't pray for his mom to get well. There's a part of me that doesn't want her to get well. I love him. It's easier for me if she doesn't recover.
I say that it's because I want him to be in a safe place. But, I really just want him to be in our family forever. He's perfect and wonderful.
I don''t have a nice ending for this blog. Just being vulnerable.